Think this is one of the rare occasions that you will find me in a dress. Number of times that i wear a dress or skirt in a year? 1...2... well... definitely countable with my fingers.
Met up with Kakis group last nite at Bugis Brecko. At our gatherings, somehow i am still expecting YuTang to turn up. Walking toward us with the big smile on his face and a cigg between his fingers. The last time we were there, Yutang was there too. He was late and complained about his new haircut. I miss him at our gatherings. I miss his voice. Though he always call me fat married woman, he always bring a smile to my face.
Thinking of the past, I got to know him thru the net during my poly days. We met up a few times before i left for melbourne. Upon returning to singapore, i didnt have many friends to turn to. I was trying to pick myself up after a very complicated relationship. He was there for me when i was at my most depressed and troubled period. I didnt know where to go after work, and he would invite me to his place to spend time chatting (if not i am there trying to figure out the computer games he was glued to, and playing with baby), and wait for his friends' calls, making plans for dinner, movies, mahjong. This is how i got to know kakis group. And whenever i am out with him, he is such a gentleman that he always give me a lift home eventhough it will take him an hour to drive back and forth. And i am not the only one, he would insist of sending friends home especially when its late at night. His thoughtfulness will always be remembered.
I may be repeating the same words in my blog, time and time again. But its just impossible to put a full stop to the memories we shared. A dear friend for 10 years and it is difficult to accept that thats it. Thinking of the memories, looking at our photos, i cant help but to feel depressed and close to tears.
Have to admit, after i got married, the amount of time that i have spent with kakis group has been little. Lots of question marks ??? in my mind when i hear them talking about topics that i have no idea about. Do feel akward at times.
Now i try to meet up with them whenever i could, must not let this precious friendship fade away. YuTang has given me this opportunity to know a group of amazing people and I will treasure them.
One of my regrets is that my dear friend will not be there to attend my wedding dinner. Neither will he see my house which he has heard so much about. But i am glad that he was there to share my joy at my solemnization ceremony. If only...
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